This is a song that I really shouldn’t have written. At least not now.
But it had to be written.
A very dear friend of mine, Nathan Pranke, passed away suddenly last week. I got the call exactly a week a go and I still can’t even believe it. His best friend is also one of my closest friends and he called me to deliver the shocking news. As he was telling me what happened, all these emotions began to flood in.
Shock. Confusion. Disorientation. Disbelief. Sadness.
When I got home that evening, I told my parents what had happened and that we were asked to pray.
But my mom said something that caught my ear: What Do You Pray?
I immediately dove in and started listing off things to pray for.
Hope. Joy. Peace. Comfort.
Yet my dad looked at me and quieted me saying, “She wasn’t asking for you to answer. It was a rhetorical question. What do you pray in times like this?”
It got me thinking. She was right. What do you pray for when something this traumatic happens?
The next day, I got another phone call – this time from two different friends – confirming that Nathan was gone. As we sat in silence, one of them piped up and said, “God never meant for us to lose friends like this. We were never meant to feel this pain.” As he said that, these two ideas began to come together.
What do you pray, when the heart was never meant to feel such torment?
Later that evening, as I was processing with another friend the words and melody just began tumbling out and the song was complete in about 10 minutes.
I didn’t want to write it. It really shouldn’t have been written because my friend shouldn’t be gone. Yet, clearly Jesus had other plans and who am I to get in the way. But what really makes this song so powerful is the fact that it reminds us to remain focused on the hope that we have while not denying the emotions and grief that we may feel.
I hope one day that I’ll get to heaven and that I’ll get to sing this for Nathan personally. I’m sure he would start blushing at the thought that someone thought to do that for him but it’s not just for him but for those of us who are still here.
May We Pray for Joy. May We Pray for Peace.
The lyrics will be posted here.
Until Next Time,
Peace & Harmonies